I found a Noodle!

I'm SO excited!  Jason found a noodle that I Love!  Yay!!!!!!!!  My Spaghetti has been REDEEMED!!!!!  Spaghetti sauce that I can eat with yummy noodles!!  This makes everything better.  I Love spaghetti.  All three boys liked it too!!! 

Here's a picture of my exciting and delicious dinner:





That said, that's about all the happy news I have.  Yesterday was a really hard parenting day.  Dr. Ben called me today.  I told him that I'm 99 - 100 percent on board with the diet, but that I don't feel any better.  He wants me to take 3 cerenity a day and take my temperature before I get out of bed every morning.  He thinks my blood tested false negative for my thyroid.  My cortisol test came back.  I was an 8 or 9 first thing in the morning.  Your supposed to be a 2 or 3.  So clearly my cortisol is killing my adrenals.  He said that I have to stay away from stress as much as possible.  That's comical.  I've given up two of my escapes (food and facebook) with very little in return.  I still feel depressed and I'm lonely.

I guess this means I need to use this time to focus on God.  That news shouldn't frustrate me.  I'm just sad.

I dunno, people, I'm discouraged.  I asked Dr. Ben if I was ever going to feel better.  He told me it would take time, but that it would happen.

I hope so.  I'm discouraged.