Sonship

I'm learning that it may be time to really listen when Jason talks about spiritual matters. For years Jason has been ranting about the epiphany of sonship.  I listened with one ear, but not both because I'm not in agreement with his attitude towards the church and it's 'set up'.   For years Jason has been telling me that I am a son of God, but I didn't get it.  I thought, "Of course I am.  Your clueless!"  I felt he didn't understand me.
However, as I was speaking with Marc last weekend he suggested I read:

Sonship: The Journey into Father's Heart

I agreed because I was desperate and was able to hear the discernment he was operating from.  He was right that I have an orphan mentality.  He was also right that I had no concept of God the Father.  I not only had no concept of it, but my bitterness/wounding prevented me from having any INTEREST in knowing God the Father.

That is until I started reading this book.  It's rocking my heart.  I wish the book was a bit more polished, but it's totally rocking my heart.

I'm realizing that Knowing JESUS is NOT The Same as Knowing the Father.  I'm going to say it again because I think this is HUGE.

Knowing Jesus is NOT the Same as Knowing the Father!

Christ's entire purpose for coming to the world, living with us, teaching us, dying a horrid death, and then rising again was to Bring Us to the Father!  I know that I've had a revelation of Jesus and a revelation of the Holy Spirit.  I've based my christianity on these two realities (which are good realities), but the revelation of the father hasn't become a reality to my heart.  However, everything in Chrsitianity is about the love of the Father.  I've known the the doctrine about God the father.  I've even spoke on knowing God as a father, but I haven't personally known that reality myself. Having knowledge of the scriptures is far different then having a revelation of scripture.

I'm realizing that I've experienced Jesus.  I've experienced the Holy Spirit.  I've even experienced the Father's Love in countless ways that have changed my life, but I still don't know the Father's Love. 

My heart has not had the revelation that God is real.  God is Love.  God loves me.

For my entire Christian walk I've always called on the name of Jesus.  That, in itself, is Not a bad thing!  Jesus is Amazing!  He's my intercessor.  He's my Lord.  He Died for me.  He Loves me.  However, how did I miss that he's the Pathway to GOD - His - and My - Father?  How sad.  No wonder so many components of my heart haven't changed or been healed.

I have to wonder if I've really experienced Christianity to it's fullest.  I have to wonder if the reason we aren't raising the dead, healing the sick, loosing people from demonic influence... Changing the WORLD with LOVE... is because most of us don't know who the Author is.  We only know his son.

I feel so thankful that the Lord is showing me how to forgive.  How to count the cost of my loss, face the loss, release it, and ask God to help me replace it with something far more uplifting.

I don't think I could have ever realized how broken my heart is if I hadn't made that step to starting forgiving.  I don't think my heart would have ever had the revelation that I'm missing God and experiencing His love if I hadn't been able to count the cost and release my earthly father from his debt.

Lord, please change my heart.  My emotions, my will, my soul, and my body are all mine, but my heart is WHO I am.  I want my heart to be changed with the revelation of who God, my father, is.  I know that my heart won't change without that revelation.  I don't just want to know Jesus.  I don't just want to know the Holy Spirit.  I want my heart to know who my Father really is.  I want to know what it is to be a son.  A daughter.  Not just a friend of Jesus.